cryin....
ytd, i was omoz dehydrated cuz i lost a lot of shui fen due 2 crying....hahaz....i lyk cried all e way frm wang zi bian qing wa 2 bai se ju ta....i tink tis entry will bore u 2 death...hehe...cuz i'm gona blog abt where i cried....s usual, i only blog wadeva i wan...lol~~~
i started cryin in wang zi bian qing wa....s far s i cn rmb, i cried @ 2 pts....1stly, @ e pt where li guan qu pour water on junhao....den dey lend him dang-ou's clothes 2 chg in2....suddenly, every1 was shocked s dey tot dey saw dang-ou cum bk...jinzhi mama even start cryin....u c jinzhi mama used 2 xian dong xian xi abt dang-ou but only when she lose him do she starts 2 miss him....i tink ppl onli cherish ppl or tinks when dey r gone....n til den dey'll haf regrets....n e 2nd pt i cried is @ e pt tianyu ask junhao 2 b dang-ou 4 10 secs....n when i hear junhao/dang-ou says: "dang-ou de ren shen yin wei yu dao yi ge jiao ye tian yu de nu: shen kai shi....she's a liar, money-minded, blah blah blah (sum bad pts of her), but in her heart live an angel..." wah....den i start cryin.....but i turned 2 cursin when yunxi called junhao n ziqian passed e hp 2 him, thus disturbin dem.....wad sia...."%$#@!?"......
i tink if u say wang zi bian qing wa is my fav ou xiang ju ye bu wei guo....e reason i lyk it so much even thou itz nt original is cuz i tink e show cn rilli ctrl my emos....1 moment, i'm chuckling, laughin out loud n hysterically, e nxt, tears will well up in my eyes n i juz start cryin....den while i'm cryin e show will make mi po ti wei xiao by sayin sth lame or stupid.....wahaha.....
den bai se ju ta is oso DAMN nice....i regretted missing so many eps sia....or rather mayb it was cuz i miss so many eps ttz y i owaes tink itz nice...imaginery....i cried lyk siao last nite sia....@ many many pts....
when in e beginning, i watch qiu qing cheng n ma yi fen, I alr felt v touched....i tink xiao ma is very noble n strong....thou @ 1st she did tinks 2 hurt qiu qing cheng....when qiu ask her 2 arrange a mitin wif his son when he is older, she dwnrite rejected it....i did nt xpect tt rilli....but she says tt he alr has a happy family, an adorable daughter.....so she will juz tell her child tt his dad has gone 2 a faraway place.....
den aft which i started cryin wif su yi hua when he was in e car n xiang qi guan xin de zhong zhong.....actually, my opinion of guan xin is ke hen n ke lian....y she so stupid leave su yi hua hu's so devoted 2 her....but she had 2 deal wif an abortion n emotional zhen zha all by herself when tt zhuang abandon her....i cld understd her fears 4 leavin su yi hua.....e fear tt e same tink will hpn 2 her agn....
den e nxt @ e pt chen kuan started hao dao da ku aft he puked (he gt cancer)....n when he told his wife tt su yi hua is his bez pals n said bye bye 2 him....nxt when chen kuan's dad read e letter n when i realise chen kuan only has less den 3 mths 2 live....finali,@ tis major pt when chen kuan said "xiang xiang nw tt u r 15..."
lili: *all along hidin bhind e nwsppr preventin ppl 2 realise she is cryin* " tt xiang xiang look lyk 15 meh???"
tv: *show chen kuan sittin on e bed wif a voice recorder*
lili: *suddenly starts sobbin uncontrollably*
*aft awhile*
lili's bro: "wei, u understd anot???"
lili: *stil sobbin, make BIG gaspin sounds*
u noe when i cry 4 tv shows or bks, i usually juz screw my face up n cry....but 4 tt, i started sobbin real loud....cldnt ya yi my sobs....but i tink i was rilli touched bcuz of wad chen kuan says...."xiang xiang, do u rmb hw daddy looks???2 bad, daddy only haf memories of ur childhood times" n "children w/o daddy muz b stronger...u muz make alot of decisions urself...but daddy will b watchin u frm heaven..."
den nxt i cried when chen kuan handed su yi hua e fotos tt cn b used 2 threaten him....even frens cn make use of each other....only when deir di pai quan tan kai lai, cn u truely bcum real pals....n @ e coconut drink chat wif his dad....IF his dad knew his son was gg 2 die, he wldnt haf force him 2 do tinks he dun1....plan so much ahead....n if chen kuan knew he himself will die, he wld haf live his life e way he wans....
btw, hw cum tang zhi ping's name is so bhind sia....unfair...he ming ming is 1 of e supportin actor lor...
UNFAIR de.....
so basically, i cried thruout e show lar....den when i was washin my face durin liu xin ping's pt, i started tinkin....su yi hua muz feel terrible 2 c everybody leave him....his frens dyin, his love leavin him...he is a doc, he is s'pose 2 save lives but he cldnt even save his frens....helpless...so i tink 2nite i'll haf my fair share of cryin agn....n i started drinkin lotsa water 2 bu zhong shui fen....n my eyes were dry so i coerce my bro 2 ti eyedrops 4 me...but i din dare 2 open my eyes lar....so he has 2 aim properly on my eyelid so it'll sumhw drip in2 my eyes...wahaha...
n 2day i went 2 e columbarium 2 bai my grandfather....i haf nv seen him b4...actually, both maternal n paternal side of my grandfather....dey both died b4 i was born....since it was a sun, e place was crowded lar....den we manage 2 find tis small table 2 put our offerings....i saw quite alot of teenagers der...but moz of dem r lyk me n my bro, stdin @ 1 side...starin in2 space...lost....n i tink e whole qing ming thingy will mo luo aft our parents die....*touchwood* me 4 once dun tink i'll cont bai-ing lar....den when i went up 2 c my grandfather's urn, it juz dawned on mi tt i m surrounded wif lotsa dead ppl's ashes....death is surroundin mi....
we often haf fears of losin our loved ones.....i tink nb is afraid of deaths.....dey r juz scared of wad hpn aft deaths n leavin e ppl we loved.....n when i reach hm, a conversation make mi juz wana cry.....
lili's grandmother: u gt go up 2 c ur grandfather's urn anot????
lili: gt....
lili's grandmother: ur grandfather muz b shocked 2 c his grandchildren zhang zhe me da le....
lili: *i duno y, but i felt e strong urge 2 cry....*
mayb it was bcuz i tot tt dey took great pains 2 brin us up???i duno lar....i'm lyk cryin when i'm bloggin tis....
mayb i'm juz being emo???
