it has been a wk+ since i've blogged....n 2 my no. 1 loyal fan, Ms Lee Han Ting, i noe u miss mi...wahaha.... *i tink 1 day ht'll cum wif a chopper 2 hack mi* hahaz....
n i'm SICK agn....argh~~~it has been a mth+ since i dun nd 2 rely on my yellow pills 2 survive....n juz when sch is gona start, i'm sick wif a BAD THROAT, RUNNING n BLOCKED NOSE n SERIOUS COUGHING....itz juz so sickening....i guess i'm bk 2 e routine of hafin 2 take 2 cold tablets every morn b4 i leave my hse....haiz~~~i fear tt i may b e slave of my cold medicine, ie a drug addict....it sounds serious but itz true...hehe....
sch is gona start in another 2 more days....thou, i'm tryin 2 console myself tt i've'd e bez timetable in my poly yrs n oso perhaps e bez in e whole sbm cohort tis sem but itz nt helpin...i cant help but b abit afraid of startin sch tis time rd....1stly, it is lyk throwin mi in2 hell agn, aft 1 sem of bein in heaven durin tep....u noe hw much i haf enjoyed tep, slackin in all my stopovrs....nw i hafta deal wif e academic stress yet agn...*sigh* 2ndly, der's e ipp...i'm worried tt i'm sent 2 a wulu place alone...wif no coy...3rdly, we'll nt haf any hols til we grad....ahhhh~~~last but nt least, we r in our last yr of tertiary edu alr...SO FAST!!!
hweva cliche it muz sounds, but it totally describes wad i'm feelin nw...time pass in a blink of an eye....it's juz lyk ytd tt i was a freshie in poly life...n nw i'm gona grad in a yr...n e hot topic or popular qn nw's, "wad r u gona do when u grad frm poly???" i tink everybody huo duo huo shao will b a lil mang ran ovr tis topic....i read ezz's blog, she says she's helpless ovr wad 2 do when she grad n she seriously doesnt noe....4 those, hu hvnt yet consider tis topic, i tink itz time 2 rilli tink abt it...hahaz...i'm helpless 2....but mayb abit clearer s 2 wad 2 do...i tink i'll juz strive 2 gt in2 a sgp uni...i'm nt considerin ovrseas' 1s cuz i'm nt independent enuf n oso e tuition fees n livin exps'll b damn x....ntu n smu r FAT HOPE...since, ntu is lyk e top uni in sgp n smu wif 10+ times studs applyin 4 deir seats....meaning onli 1 in 10+ studs will b selected 2 b enrolled....meaning it'll require an interview....meaning i wun gt thru...i'm nt e kind hu cn shine in interviews....ttz left nus mayb onli biz cos....since, itz e easiest biz cos 2 enter....a/ctancy cos is out of e qn since itz so damn diff 2 gt in....n so damn popular...which makes me tink mayb i sld gif up e uni route since i'm nt exactly interested in biz cos....nt tt i lyk a/ctancy 2 since itz so borin....i juz dun lyk studyin....i study solely 4 e sake of gettin tt diploma cert so tt it may add on a lil insurance 2 my future...mayb finance'll b a lil of interest 2 mi...juz a lil....but i stil hate studyin....so dun gif mi craps lyk gaining more knowledge n interests....huo dao lao xue dao lao only applies 2 tinks which u r interested in....i study solely 4 e sake of e cert....
bk 2 e pt, mayb i sld consider takin private acca qualifications....thou, it'll b tough....but i'm nt sure of e details....mayb ht u wana help mi research abit???hahaz...pls pls....i'm nt considerin sim since i dun tink itz recognised, no pt wastin so much $$$....so e clearer decision is i'll start wkin aft i grad....so i may b 1 of e 1st 2 go in2 e wkin world amg e ppl i noe....ttz means i gona scrimp n save 2 gt $$ 2 pay 4 e acca clzes...provided i haf e determination 2 cont my studies...which is pretty tough since it is hard wkin n studyin @ e same time....n oso nd 2 save $$ 4 retirement...thou, it may b abit 2 early 2 tink of tt....hahaz....but rilli MONEY NO ENUF....
but all these plans cn only fall in2 place, provided tt i cn find a job...n bein a pessimistic gal, i fear tt i may nt b able 2 find 1...seriously, i'm scared of interviews...n i duno where i cn find jobs xcept thru nwspprs...i noe online oso cn but lyk wad sites n stuffs, i'm totally mang ran...tokin abt interviews, thou i've'd sum xperiences in interviews 4 pt-time jobs but itz diff....those r more casual but 4 full-time jobs, itz more 4mal n frightenin...i'm nt an interview kinda person...n my eng sucks...i swear i would b more confident if i cn speak in chi...but alas, e sad tink is e chi language is of low valuation nwadays...i'm more of a writin person den a tokin 1...u cn cor mi 2 write but nt tok...i may b able 2 impress more wif writin...therefore, i may b able 2 secure an interview but nt b able 2 pass it...haiz...thus, i tink itz impt 4 mi 2 brush up my interviewin skills...b more self-confident, increase my self-esteem, brush up my comm skills n eye contact...etc etc...
no wonder ppl say tt sch life is e moz enjoyable time in one's life...lesser responsibilities, lesser worries...more fun, more play...i realise tt we r all nearly 20 alr...2 decades of our life has past....but i feel tt our life is only juz abt 2 begin....e road is far n i cant c e end....
ttz y, i say life sucks....='(
