a lil philosophical, a lil casual n a lil danish...
mind u....tis's gona b a looong looong entry....hahaz....tis entry will b a lil philosophical, a lil casual n a lil danish.....wahaha....u muz b astonished by my previous entry, let mi tell u y...ah zu has bcum my inspirational icon....hehe....cuz ytd i blog tt i'll cont my xercising plan 4 dear dan's sake but it started raining....so i chg my joggin 2 climbin stairs which i haf nt done b4....e 1st time i climbed it was alrite....i only felt a lil giddy n i cld feel e strain on my legs....e gravitational pull on my body....den i decided i wanted 2 try a 2nd time but alas my weak body cldnt take it....when i conquer e 10th floor (i onli live on e 7th floor, mind u....), i felt v giddy....den s i climb further up, i wanted 2 gif up....my heart was pounding real hard against my abdomen....yes....my heart felt lyk it has fallen dwn a few inches frm where it originally was.....i duno if it was cuz of my phobia of height or tt i'm anaemic or e moz likely reason tt i'm weak n oso my lack of training.....but @ tt moment, i juz wanted 2 walk 2 e lift area n take e lift dwn 2 my house.....
oh ya...i'd lyk 2 mention tt s nb takes e stairs nwadays, e railings were damn dusty lar.....u noe i nd 2 clutch e railings sumtimes, n my fingers were black aft touchin it....i began 2 wonder whether i'm e 1st person in e blk hu finish climbing e stairs b4.....
bk 2 e pt, s i v v wanted 2 gif up, i tot of dearest daniel.....i started 2 tink of hw tough his wushu training muz b......e pains he took 2 master it....his perserverance, his determination.....if i'd known him personally, i tink he wld b 1 wif a nv-say-die, nv-gif-up spirit....den i started tinking, if i cant even overcum tis, hw do i face e obstacles tt i may face in future, the challenges, the probs????so i brace myself 2 cont climbin up den dwn bk 2 my hse.....but knowin lili is a
W-E-A-K-L-I-N-G....u noe she cnt take such torments on her body, so aft she conquered e 24 storeys (12 X 2), she rushed bk hm feelin damn sick n wanted 2 vomit.....n she cldnt resist, n she rushed 2 e toilet 2 VOMIT......i sld haf taken a pic of my puke....2 disgust all of u...wakaka....i puke out my lunch lar.....my cai fan....den aft drinkin sum warm water, i felt beta, dun worry....=P
hehe....den aft tt i decided 2 bu hui wad i haf vomitted....hahaz....so i went on the search 4 food 2 eat.....u muz b amazed....hahaz.....i went 2 eat biscuits called su da bing.....wif sugar de....so e correct name sld b biskut gula....i'm sure all of u haf eaten it b4 when u r small.....it has been v loong since i ate tt biscuits....n it was HEAVENLY.....it tasted v delicious 2 me....damn yummy....beta den e biscuits dey developed nwadays....mayb it was due 2 e fact tt i haf nt eaten tis biscuits 4 v long....tan xin xian...
biskut gula
BUT.....tis abt marked e start of e main pt of my tis entry.....tt we humans cn b satisfied n happy wif e lil tinks, e simplest tinks tt we encounter....but ttz only 4 awhile...BECAUSE humans r greedy, humans r nt ezily satisfied, humans r nv contented.....dey r constantly in search of fame, money, status etc etc....in the world, everybody is wearin a mask, u may nv noe deir true self....everytink cld b a pretence.....i read frm zaobao e meaning of bai se ju ta....in case u duno, itz a show....n e rough meaning of it is tt in e society every1 is lyk trapped in tt tower, dey'll try deir bez 2 climb up n up e corporate ladder....til dey r caught in e xuan wo of fame, status, money.....n dey will lose demself inside....trapped in e tower 4eva....i tink ttz pretty much y i lyk 2 watch e show....bein pessimistic s u all noe, i luv 2 watch e dark sides of humans....e pursuit 4 status n e despicable methods dey use 2 attain it...gou xin dou jiao, er yu wo zha....ttz lyk e basic rules of e game in e society....a dog-eat-dog world.....every1 has a dark side 2 dem....
actually, all in all, we'll b happy if we r ezily contented....once we let go, we will attain happiness....itz simple 2 say but diff 2 put in2 action....i shant say tt we sld wk 2wards being self-contented, i'm nt tt noble...i cant do it...n i tink itz a load of crap....mayb ttz y when i watch tv or read bks, i cant stand those naive characters....i tink dey r stupid....thou, dey r owaes e happiest....i tink dey cant survive in tis world....if u watch wang zi bian qing wa, u'll noe tt dey haf a phrase....tt lao ye told Dang-ou when he lose his memories....it goes sth lyk, "mayb heaven is givin u a 2nd chance by lettin u lose ur memories.....another chance 4 u 2 live agn, 2 stop n look @ e flowers....." i tink tis's v true....lyk hw many ppl rilli get e chance 2 admire nature once dey start wkin????BUT, junhao has tis phrase i rmb, "if u cn complete sth ppl use 10 mins 2 do in 2 mins, u'll haf 5 times e time of a normal person...." i cant help but agree wif wad he says 2....itz contradicting lar....i noe....
but if i do gt a 2nd chance, i tink i'll live it e way lyk wad lao ye says....tt's only if i gt a 2nd chance....
mayb ttz e reason y i lyk 2 live in my own world....convinced s i mite tt i haf 2 live e hectic way, but i wan 2 slow dwn n smell e roses 2....mayb i'm juz escapin frm reality....but i do wish e world will revert bk 2 e times where e purest souls of human beings exist....where happiness is so simple, so reachable n so ezily attained....
bk 2 dan, i myself feel v proud of bein a mature, sensible n realistic fan of daniel wu....therefore, i wld lyk 2 praise myself...wahaha....i tink idols will wan deir fans 2 behave in tis way....treatin dem s an inspiring source....tis reminds me of e andy lau's crazy fan nws....i muz say tt gal is moronic....wad affinity n crap....n i'm nt @ all sori tt e dad died....u may say i'm heartless...but i tink he deserve it....he's harmin his daughter's life thou he may tink otherwise....u cant say he does nt luv his daughter but c'mon b rational....cant u differentiate wadz wrong or rite????tis is sth simple, nth in e grey region....u r juz bein stupid n self-deceiving....
i realise i haf been bloggin abt danny alot...hehe....but wadz matter is i'm hapi bloggin abt him...rite???i dun nd 2 care wad u ppl tink....hahaz...jkin lar...u noe wad i mean....we sld b hapi 4 wad we ourselves tink, nt of wad ppl tink....wad matters is ourselves....nt others....tis may sound selfish....but i rilli tink i sld learn 2 b selfish, 2 b more self-centred...cuz moz of e time i'm unhapi bcuz of wad others tink n say....i'm wkin 2wards it....mayb in e end, it'll result in me constructin a false front 2 hide my true self???or m i alr doin so, hidin my true feelings frm others....
well, i'm gg 2 do my 100 sit-ups nw....den eat ice-cream n biskut gula....n oso ltr 2 catch my fav ou xiang ju, wang zi bian qing wa.....
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